hmm.hola2.penat nye saye.ntah kenape.rase badan sgt penat dan xbermaye.mate pun mcm xbley bukak.da la mate i ni mmg chumel2 gitu.aduhh.otak berat,pale bit pusin2,umah sepah2,habuk byk,ye la tgh renovation kan.last nyt was horror.ntah nape tibe2 rase mcm my lyf tumbles down.i can see that im actually alone.mcm on the edge,just waiting for the ryt tym to fall.kenape ek?spe2 ade jwpn,or spe2 ade na kenalkan saye dgn any psychiatrist utk memberikan jwpn kepada soalan2 maut saye ni.ntahla.this feeling doesnt come often nowadays.tapi semalam it came n visit.remuk hatiku.haih.i was crying like hell smlm.like ive never cried before.huh.and i ended waking up in the morning with swollen red eyes.cmne ek?cume shopping je dpt melegakan sme ni.ahha.xbley2.da byk shop.furthermore,na shop lagi kat Bandung nanti.tapi seyusly.mcm sum1 with mental probs kan?aduss.nape ngan me ni?me da gile ke?ahh.im sure sum of u know the feeling when sum1 y kite syg sparuh mati(klu full,me da xde kat sni.sedekah alfatihah je la),senang2 je ckp "soe,but im afraid i can luv u no more".lagi ckp "u slalu repeat.upset over the same thing".aduss.klu la die xbuat d same prob,ade ke kite na get emo psl mende y sme tu over n over again kan?sum ppl just cannot think.kadang2,ppl ni,ckp sumthing y reflect back on their mistakes.huhu.DUMB!bencinye.me bukan nanges psl me sedey.well,sedey tu ade la,tp more to dendam.me sakit ati sgt2.cam sumthnk xlepas.my dear fwens tw kan what i had been thru n have to go thru.during the relationship n after.let me tell u la,if i can stand his attitudes y lagi ntah pape(xna mention lagi.nnt.me tgh marah giler ni),why cant he stand mine -which i da tny to older person n more experienced,is normal for girls in relationships- ???is he a freak from another planet or what?hish.Fwens,cume u all tw kan.u all tgk me cne dlu,n skang.thnx for the support.without u all me xtw la cne na truskan.n all the guys y bagi me smngt: Bob,Ammar,Munir,Zaid,Harun,Due,Naqib,Jack,Suffi,Starjark n meybe ade y me xsbut.u all are being realistic.me ingt u all will sokong dat guy,but ternyata u all berfikiran terbuka.thnx.n my girlfwens: Syaz,Ram,Mar,Anis,Eda,Tee-n, Azza,Nad,Qaira,Kiroro,Fatin,Anna.u guys made a big different in my life.klu la u all xbagi nasihat n xhold me on grounds,me da loncat bangunan.ahha.NOTT!n nasib bek ade all the inspirational songs,articles,poems,stories to guide me thru my self-destructing period.me x kan pernah lupekan ape y terjadi pade me ni.i will N.E.V.E.R forgive nor forget.n of coz i will never forget jasa u all pade me.thnx a million.altho kdg2 me seems disturbed,tapi slalunye me ok.sometym la it haunts me.but no big deal.im a big girl,n big girl dont cry.ahha.okies.

p/s:Anna,me rase shoutout hari tuw inappropriate la.me bace balik kan,mcm me ni too easy.ahha.BTW,he's not NF,so he doesnt deserve nice words..gona make aother one that suits him better...just watch the words.a bit disturbing!!uhu.